Vulnerable

So last night I was at prayer and God did something.  I was called over to be prayed for by the youth pastor (I should specify that it was a youth group prayer meeting)  and he began to pray and speak over me.  He said that I need to get back on the operating table and let God finish the healing that he needs to do in me.  Funny thing about this is I can remember being n intern at MCA and being on the operating table and constantly getting on and off.  Now here is the problem I do not know how to let God finish the healing he has already begun.  I don't know how to be vulnerable and show who I really am and let people see what is actually going on in me.  So to those that read my blog I need some help.  

My Heart Hurts

Last night my heart hurt... not because of anything in my own life but for some of my sisters in the Lord.  You see God has given me this wonderful gift where I feel (literally feel) the heart break of those around me.  I have just felt this heartache for my sisters because I know there is so much going on and they are hurting but are afraid to ask for help.  So now my heart hurts for them.  I have to pray and be there for them.  It is time to battle for them, because they cannot battle this on their own. Just a thought... or a rambling... let me know what you think... 

Planting a church? Transforming lives? Working outside the box? What does this all mean? So I realized that I no longer can be content to go to church and do church as usual. I cannot just sit in another worship service unless something drastic changes. What do I mean? Unless the church has love saturating the people then what is the point? The bible says that they will know we are His disciples one for another. If we cannot show our love for one another than what are we doing? If the world can't see Gods love in us then what do they see? We need to have love for one another!
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Vision

So for awhile I have been playing with the idea that perhaps I should get a non profit status for this church I am planting.  I know that churches are considered to be non profit organizations but when you get a 503 c status you get a special number.  People are more willing to give money and items to organizations that have a tax id as a non profit.  Organizations are a lot less likely to give money to churches but when it is presented as a non profit agency working to empower people to transform their lives.  I have a goal to have homes or apartments where families can live while they can get on their feet.  In the process of doing this they will be in a place where the love of God is permeating every part of their lives.  By giving people the option to  focus on more than keeping the roof over their head they can focus on learning about God and transforming their lives for the good.  They can have the ability to go after their dreams and helping people achieve their dreams you touch them in a different and special way that has more impact.  Just some undeveloped ideas....